For the first time since finding sobriety, and pretty much for the first time in my life, I am viewing the word of God with new eyes.
I have a whole new appreciation for the story of Saul’s conversion. Saul was making “… havoc of the church…” by jailing the believers.
Because, like all of us, Saul was a beloved son of God, he was “blessed” with a visitation from his Savior. When the resurrected Christ spoke to Saul, he stated, “…it is hard for thee to kick against the pricks.” (Acts 9:5)
It is clear to me that Saul, although he was firmly committed to tearing down the church, was being “pricked” by his conscience.
I’ve been where Saul was. For decades, I was convinced alcohol was the answer to my mental and physical struggles, so I used LOTS of it, often daily. However, there were frequently “pricks” that reminded me there must be a better way to live. I just couldn’t see the way.
When Christ’s visitation to Saul ended, Saul opened his eyes to find himself in total darkness. He had to be assisted on his journey to Damascus because he could not see. Like Saul, I went through long periods of extreme darkness. However, I was too proud to ask for help and was battered and bruised by stumbling around in the darkness.
While Saul suffered through the darkness and prayed mightily for redemption, the Lord prepared a way. He visited Ananias in a vision. The Lord commanded Ananias to go minister to Saul. Ananias was shocked. He knew Saul’s reputation. However, again in this story, we see God’s love for his children.
The Lord told Ananias, “Go thy way: for [Saul] is a chosen vessel unto me… I will show [Saul} how great things he must online natural viagra viagra over the counter joke https://lukeeng.com/services/essay-on-right-and-wrong/54/ https://ssmf.sewanee.edu/experience/essay-on-dussehra-festival-in-sanskrit-language/250/ medical residency personal statement writing service how to write reviews paper to help read not lose place reading critical essays on dorian gray https://robsonranchviews.com/article/critical-analysis-thesis/4/ enter site pay someone to write a literature review persuasive essays topics sports https://greenacresstorage.net/thesis-powerpoint-presentation-format/ harvard 50 essays viagra tomar media pastilla viagra e cialis a confronto silagra viagra clearly written thesis statement https://indiana.internexus.edu/courses/argument-of-definition-essay-on-art/52/ contrasting essays sample allegra 24 hr side effects viagra ricetta rossa go site follow site source https://businesswomanguide.org/capstone/pied-beauty-essay-questions/22/ pr dissertation topics https://www.gec-group.com/sectors/levitra-eu/198/ see https://writerswin.com/book/creative-writing-art-activities/97/ chicago style essay justified source site suffer for my name’s sake.” Ananias went to Saul, laid hands on him, blessed him to have his sight restored, and blessed him that he might “…be filled with the Holy Ghost.” And “…immediately…[Saul] received his sight forthwith, and arose, and was baptized.” (Acts 9:15-16)
Daily, I remind my friends and clients that life in Recovery (and in the Gospel) is better, but it certainly is NOT easier! Christ has personally shown me “…how great things I must SUFFER for [his] name’s sake.” The more I ask for spiritual growth, the more really hard things he puts in my path.
My road to Damascus has not been easy, but in hindsight, I wouldn’t trade these experiences for anything. He continues to push me and stretch my spirit and my capacity. To quote Adam in the Garden of Eden, “…because of my transgression, my eyes are opened, and in this life, I shall have joy, and again in the Flesh I shall see God.” (Moses: 5:10—Doctrine and Covenants)
I am SO grateful for my trials and knowledge that Christ’s Atonement not only redeems me but comforts me and helps me “suffer joyfully” through my trials and problems.
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